The Fire Didn’t Kill Me. It Forged Me.
I don’t remember the exact moment I broke.Not the headlines. Not the arrest. Not the memes.It wasn’t one single thing.It
Alchemy
This is about the gritty work of changing. It’s about how I’m trying to take all the bad stuff, all the pain and mistakes, and turn it into something useful. You’ll read about my own rebirth here, how I found resilience, and how I’m still trying to find light even in the darkest places. It’s a never-ending process of trying to make myself better, from the inside out.
Symbols, Fire, and What It Means to Rewrite a Name
The first thing to burn was my name.Not just the headlines. Not just the news stories or YouTube take-downs.But the
The First Light After Myth: Waking Up Without a Name
There’s a strange kind of peace in being forgotten. When the names they gave you start to fade, and the
The Alchemy of Being Seen
They used to look at me and see everything I wasn’t. The man who fooled a city.The dreamer who went
The Phoenix Isn’t Born in Flames. It’s Born in Silence.
Everyone loves to talk about the fire. They talk about the blaze, the destruction, the inferno that consumes the old
Becoming the Ashwalker: Between Identity and Nothingness
When the world stops calling you by name, who are you? For a long time, I didn’t know. After the
What They Never Tell You About Burning Your Old Life
You imagine the moment as cinematic. A matchstick. A blaze. You walk away from the fire like a phoenix in
How Is Billy Coull Now? A Journey Through Spiritual Alchemy
They still ask me: “How is Billy Coull now?” They don’t mean physically. They mean mythically. Spiritually. Publicly. They’re asking